When I first embarked on the journey to lose weight, there were several factors that came into play before starting. There was the fact that it became increasing difficult to tie my shoes in any position that I tried. Whether it was putting my foot up, trying to bend completely over while standing up, because, trying to tie my shoes while sitting down was just impossible at the time.
Something as simple as tying my shoe laces became a major event that left me quite winded and needed a few minutes to catch my breath. The simple things I normally take for granted every day while in shape became a major task while out of shape. I noticed, it took me longer to clean the house and do my daily chores.
My Self Esteem Was Mitigated
My self esteem mitigated and I started doing less and believing that perhaps, I wasn’t cut out to do much in my life and I should succumb to being the less than average fat person and stay out of people’s way who seemed to have a definite purpose in life than I had.
Depression Seeped In
I didn’t notice at the time I was getting depressed and started feeling sick more and more every day. It felt as if something was trying to pulled me down into some type of bottomless pit and I would die without ever accomplishing anything. This went on for years undetected. My relationship suffered to the point of no return and became toxic. All external relationships that I ever thought to forge for business was destroyed as well. I simply became unproductive in my life and wanted out. I wanted a change. I needed to change.
I found Inner Strength Do Fight to Live
I started to read self-help books and listening to Jim Rohn cd’s in my car. After several months I noticed a change in my mindset, shift that would lead my down a better road. I didn’t know how long it would take but I knew and felt this would be a good road for me to take. Let’s face it, any road was better than the one I was on.
How Goal Setting Help Me Change My Life
At 305lbs, I knew I had a tough road ahead. But where and how do I start. After reading and listening to motivational material, I needed to create a goal and follow it. I must stay perfectly candid here. I was always able to set goals, but, I was never able to stay true to them and be consistent and follow them through to the end. I still struggle to this day with goal setting. However, there is one goal I have not waivered on and that is to lose weight.
I had to start with a small goal and when I reached it, I celebrated by myself. I really had no one to celebrate with any way. My first goal was to lose ten pounds. Man was I in for the fight of my life. Let me tell you why. It was easy gaining weight because without thinking, you develop so many bad habits and choices that led to an unhealthy lifestyle that you don’t notice you are changing in such a way until it’s to late. You have to start learning new and heathier habit to replace the old bad habits that is easily said then done. You also have to learn more about nutrition and how the body process food. I believe setting small goals and achieving those goals will help you prepare to reach your ultimate goal. The old saying “you have to crawl before you can walk” is fitting here.
The Change I Am Proud Of
I looked in the mirror the other day and was able to see how far I have come. I am so proud of myself for having the tenacity to forge through on my quest to lose weight. To the toon of 55lbs lighter and will continue until I have lost a full 100lbs. Is this easy no! Especially, with all the psychological is issues, self-doubt, and sabotaging I went through. I prevailed through it all. My journey is not over, I still have a long way to go. However, if my story and be of some inspiration to someone else, I am humbler for having the opportunity to inspire someone to change.
